life post grad
it’s really fun…
I graduated college 3 months and 15 days ago. 3 months and 15 days ago my childhood ended. How am I doing? As good as you could expect a twenty-teen year old to be doing. During the past week I’ve had to watch so many people go back to their college lives, while I prepare to start the next chapter of my life.
It’s lonely, it’s scary, it's exciting, and I’m not alone.
It’s comforting to know everyone goes through what I’m going through at some point. It’s a strange feeling, a mixture between agony and euphoria. So what have I been up to you ask! I spent my summer commuting to Boston to work full time at the Boston Sailing Center doing design and office work. On my days off I worked at a local country club I’ve been serving at for the past four summers. Listen, some people like the grind, I am so so proud of myself for working this hard, but I am also not built for the commuter life. This summer taught me about my work ethic and how I can succeed, but beyond that I learned so much about myself and being independent through commuting.
Before this summer I had never taken a train by myself, let alone the Massachusetts public transit system (if you know you know). I learned to be more aware of my surroundings, manage my time better as well as take advantage of the hours in the day. I learned going to bed early is a blessing, and sleeping in is a privilege. It hasn’t been all ups though, trust me there’s been plenty of downs. The other day I broke down crying in front of a parking attendant, but he did let me go for free so in my book that’s a win. Lately I’ve realized more and more how life has a funny way of balancing. With more good comes more bad, and vise versa. I have the world in front of me, endless opportunity and the ability to make anything happen for myself. Then I also have the crushing weight of being on my own in a way I’ve never had to be before.
so what’s next?
I do have a unique situation compared to my peers. 99% of the people I know who are done with school moved back home indefinitely. I don’t have that option sadly. I have to be out of my parents house by October 1st. Have I found a place yet? We’re working on it. Can I afford to live in Boston? We’re working on it! While my friends were vacationing in Europe and enjoying their last summer of freedom, I worked every minute I could, and turned down doing things to save money. But it’ll all be worth it when my view is the City of Champs.
I love my job at the sailing center, and I’m going to continue working there as long as I can, and looking for entry-level graphic design work in the meantime. All I can do from here is keep my head up and keep trying. Life has a tendency to work out in a funny way for me. So I’m not gonna stress about it, because I know what I’m capable of, and trust the universe will bring me what’s right for me.
Anyways, I’m at my train stop. Talk soon.
